Not me. God no. Michael and I may never move again. Certainly with our recently purchased home’s value still looking at water over its head we could not sell our home any time soon.
No, my blog identity is relocating.
Why??? I hear the distressed cries. (Amazing how you are all managing to make that sound like vague disinterest…just kidding.)
Here’s a story.
A few weeks ago I had lunch with a friend, and was mentioning how conferences filled with fellow speech therapists tend to make me nervous. I’m just not as earnest as they are, and it make me a little unsettled.
And he said, very frankly, “That’s because you don’t love it.”
And believe it or not, I had never thought of it that way. He’s right. I like it, I’m grateful that I discovered it, I am pleased that I’m good at it, I’m very very happy that it allows me to earn a good living. But I don’t love it in a way that allows me to immediately bond with others who do it, and I don’t have that passionate advocacy for it that makes conferences and publications exciting. And that may have been part of why the idea of the business is exciting to me, because then I get to do some of the things I’m good at (presentations, teaching) that are more about other skills of mine than purely the SLP ones.
But then the friend went one step further (’cause that’s the sort of guy he is) and said, “You love writing.”
And he’s right. Again. We hate him so.
But Lori, you say with your vague disinterest, you write here, right?
Right, I say. Write? No, right. I wrote it right the first time.
I started writing here about the business, or more the process of the business, and some of those things were funny.
But then I started the Martha Points page, and I fell in love with that. I’ve only written a handful of them, and I’m really enjoying it, and people seem to be quite entertained by it.
And I’m in a quandry right now – there just aren’t enough hours in the day to do all the things i want to do. There simply are not, no matter how I do the math.
I need to work at the day job to pay the bills. I need to work on the business a few hours every day to create it. I still need to put food on my family. I have a home, and some hobbies that stoke fires. And while writing is one of my favorite things, writing this blog, writing the blog for the business (yes, there is one) and writing the Martha page is just too much. As is maintaining the blog, trying to promote it, etc.
I can’t do it all.
I hate that. I want to do it all. I want to do it all in grand style and with fanfares and sparkly clothes.
But – as much as it pains me and is a violation of the oath I took as a member of the Psychotic Working Mom’s League of Unattainable Perfection – I cannot do it all and do any of it well.
So, I decided to focus on the Martha Points and have created a blog that’s just that. And as part of that, decided that I was going to go ahead and spring for the camera I’ve been wanting to try and make the stuff that I’m writing there funnier and more relevant with photos that I take (as opposed to the ones I mostly use from various photo-sharing sites.)
So here’s the new page: http://marthapoints.wordpress.com
I hope you’ll read there, and share if you like what you read.
I’m keeping this blog open, I may come back to it some day, and may post here when something really pertinent to the business happens.
Evolution in action!